I am getting so damn bored with the whole dating thing. Salien messaged me the other night saying that it was nice meeting me, but we just want different things. He said that I would make someone very happy someday.
Honestly, I wasn’t surprised when he sent me that text. I actually kind of expected it, since I noticed from his texts that he wasn’t that into it anymore. Plus, I have noticed a pattern of first dates, a bit more talking, then never meeting again, eventually not talking. Either I got stood up, or they stopped talking. I was honest with him and told him I expected that. We texted a bit more, until after a while he said he was going to bed and would text me later. I haven’t heard from him since. I am giving him his space and seeing if he will text me.
The next day in a last attempt, I made another Craigslist post. I got a few emails, talked to a few people, then deleted the ad. I am just getting so sick and tired of talking about myself, hearing basically the same thing about other people. It is so fucking boring having the same conversation over and over again. So I deleted the post. Plus, half the people that sounded decent saw my picture, never to be heard from again, another thing I am used to.
So, I don’t know what to do. I know I need to stop looking for a while. They say love will happen when you aren’t looking for it. I just feel like if I stop looking, it won’t find me. I mean, the last people that I have been with I seeked them out, not the other way around.